Friends

There is a saying that goes, "some friends are in your life for a reason, some for a season." To be perfectly honest, I don't want to be nor to have the "season". For a large part of my early life, it was always a season. Being a "brat", I made and lost friends every two to three years. There would be the period where you would write (letters, the old fashioned kind), MAYBE call, if it wasn't outrageously expensive, and promise to keep in touch. It would last for a couple of months before tapering off and new friends being the old friends and then becoming the lost friends. I don't want that in my life, anymore.

I have made and lost some amazing friends in my life. I don't want to lose any of the people I have in my life now! They are some of the strongest, sweetest, most loyal, most amazing people I could ever hope to surround myself with. I think that was the biggest factor that would have held me in Cleveland. Sometimes I get REALLY sad about having moved away from them. I am so thankful that this is an age where we can keep in touch so easily! However, it does still pain me, on occasion, when I don't have them to wrap my arms around when they are hurting or when I am lonely or hurting.

Now, when I make new friends, I try to be the kind of person they would want for a reason. I don't want to have to drop out of a person's life or to have that person want to drop out of mine. I want permanence in relationships. I need that. I like having people I know I can trust and I know will be there for me, whether in person or in spirit. I hope I am that to the people in my life. I hope they know they can count on me whether in person or in spirit, I want to be there for my friends like so many of them have been there for me. I want and want to be thick, thin, and forever friends with the people in my life. It may seem unrealistic to some, but, it is an earnest desire of mine. I have always craved permanence in relationships and I am so thankful to have finally found it with so many wonderful people!